Passing Her Back to God
Diagnosis: Turner Syndrome
By Mother to a Much Loved First Child
We were pregnant with our first child. After a year of trying, it seemed like a miracle. We were so happy, we couldn't really believe it!
The pregnancy ran smoothly, and the 12 week scan came very quickly. We were looking forward to it so much. You just never believe there is going
to be anything wrong, especially at our ages; I was only 23 and my husband 28, but that day turned out to be one of the worst days of my life.
June 9th, 2006 we went in for our scan. The look on the nurse's face said it all. There was something wrong: they could see a large cystic
hygroma. I asked what that meant and they said they are linked with syndromes. I was shattered. My husband held me all the way home.
The following week, we saw a specialist who agreed that the cystic hygroma was very large and the prognosis was probably not too good. She did
add that they can sometimes be nothing and sort themselves out, but I knew she was saying this just to make us feel better. At 14 weeks, I had the
CVS test. It took just four days for the results to come back. The lady on the phone said it was something called Turner's Syndrome. I broke down
and looked it up on the Internet immediately. There I learned that it was something that only affected girls. One of the X chromosomes is missing.
There wasn't any doubt in our minds as to what we were to do. We loved our little girl too much to bring her into the world. What sort of life
would she have had? We were told there was a 90 percent chance she would not have made it to birth. If she did, she would never have been able to
even mother her own children. It was the hardest thing I have ever done in my life, passing our baby girl back to God, where he will look after her
and keep her safe until we see her again. On the June 29th, 2006 I delivered my little girl. We know she is safe and we know we will see her again
one day. I just hope she can forgive us for what we did and understand that we did this all for her because we loved her so much.