Poetry 6

My Son, My Love

On November 21st an angel came to me
One i loved with all my heart but wasnt meant to be
He was such a little thing so small and pure and nice
with his mamma's hair and his daddy's ears... he never opened his eyes
For he had other things to do in heaven up above.
To fly the world on golden wings, and fill all hearts with love

Jennifer, in memory of my sweet Dakota

FOR SARAH ROSE

For a short time I had
your body in my body;
I carried
your belly in my belly.

And now, though I have
your heart in my heart
and feel
your soul in my soul,

I will never again have
your hand in my hand.
I miss
Your life in my life.

Toys On The Shelf

Toys on the shelf
Paint on the walls
A crib unoccupied

Books on the ledge
Stories unread
Tales untold

Drawers filled with dust
Empty of memories
Waiting to be filled

Rocking chair still
Lullabies unsung
Comfort not given

Closet of clothes
Dreams unworn
The future on hangers

Mobile still
Music not played
Frozen in time

Stuffed animals about
Stare with glass eyes
Waiting to be held

Darkness in light
Coolness in warmth
Sorrow in happiness

Memories abound
Hopes remind
That there are still

Toys on the shelf

Written by an AHC Dad

In memory of Braelyn Nichole
Born May 27, 2003. 22 weeks

With each raindrop that from heaven fall,
I feel your memory call.
The memory of a life that could not survive,
A heart that will never thrive.
I remember how your body was so weak,
So with a heavy soul, your peace I seek.
A decision no Mother or Father should ever have to make,
The only way to go on living is knowing it was for your sake.
Now you may be happy, like you could never be on earth,
As I am left with the guilt surrounding your birth.
Please, Lord, let her know how much I care,
Tell her everyday how much I'll miss all we'll never share.
When night comes please kiss her tiny head,
Knowing You love her to, I will dry the tears I've shed.

Mommy loves you and misses you, Braelyn

My Beautiful Dream

My beautiful dream you are not gone
I think about you all day long.

You are in a place I cannot be,
But where I look you are all I see.

The stars in the sky, the sun on my face
My all too short embrace.

You are my gift this much I know
I'll take you everywhere I go.

You and I will never part
You'll always be within my heart.

My beautiful dream you are not gone
I'll think of you my whole life long.

For Olivia Anne who was born and died on April 5, 2004
at 22 weeks diagnosed with Wolf Hirschhorn Syndrome;
a partial deletion of the 4th chromosome.
She will always be her Mommy and Daddy's Beautiful Dream.

Mothers tell their stories...

I told her how sorry I was and that I loved her and did not want her to suffer. I would rather suffer every day for the rest of my life than to allow her to suffer one moment in life.

~Mom of an Angel

Everything was going great. As already having two "normal" pregnancies under my belt, I felt confident. I knew there was always that chance of hearing bad news but I said "no, not me, not our baby."

We felt that if our daughter had been in a car accident and was on life support with the same internal injuries, we would not keep her on life support and let her suffer. This child deserved the same dignity."

~ A grieving mom

I initially thought I would "be brave" and continue my pregnancy. But I came to realize that ultimately it wasn't about how strong I could be, how deeply I wanted this baby or what important lessons he could teach me. It was about what he would experience in his short life. Given his diagnosis, he would have known only suffering. As his mother, I couldn't allow that to happen.

~ A mother at peace

It was our ignorance for believing that all pregnancies led to a healthy baby. It was my arrogance for believing that since I had the best medical care, took prenatal vitamins even before and during my pregnancy, never took drugs, never smoked cigarettes and drank about half a glass of wine a year, that our baby would be safe.

~A bereaved mother

Mothers tell their stories...

I told her how sorry I was and that I loved her and did not want her to suffer. I would rather suffer every day for the rest of my life than to allow her to suffer one moment in life.~Mom of an Angel

Everything was going great. As already having two "normal" pregnancies under my belt, I felt confident. I knew there was always that chance of hearing bad news but I said "no, not me, not our baby."

We felt that if our daughter had been in a car accident and was on life support with the same internal injuries, we would not keep her on life support and let her suffer. This child deserved the same dignity."~ A grieving mom

A mother will stop at nothing, including her own hurt, both mentally and physically, to protect her child. ~Brokenhearted Mother

I told her how sorry I was and that I loved her and did not want her to suffer. I would rather suffer every day for the rest of my life than to allow her to suffer one moment in life.

~Mom of an Angel

We felt that if our daughter had been in a car accident and was on life support with the same internal injuries, we would not keep her on life support and let her suffer. This child deserved the same dignity."

~ A grieving mom

A mother will stop at nothing, including her own hurt, both mentally and physically, to protect her child.

~Brokenhearted Mother