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I told her how sorry I was and that I loved her and did not want her to suffer. I would rather suffer every day for the rest of my life than to allow her to suffer one moment in life.

~Mom of an Angel

Everything was going great. As already having two "normal" pregnancies under my belt, I felt confident. I knew there was always that chance of hearing bad news but I said "no, not me, not our baby."

~A Heartbroken Mother

We felt that if our daughter had been in a car accident and was on life support with the same internal injuries, we would not keep her on life support and let her suffer. This child deserved the same dignity."

~ A grieving mom

I initially thought I would "be brave" and continue my pregnancy. But I came to realize that ultimately it wasn't about how strong I could be, how deeply I wanted this baby or what important lessons he could teach me. It was about what he would experience in his short life. Given his diagnosis, he would have known only suffering. As his mother, I couldn't allow that to happen.

~ A mother at peace

It was our ignorance for believing that all pregnancies led to a healthy baby. It was my arrogance for believing that since I had the best medical care, took prenatal vitamins even before and during my pregnancy, never took drugs, never smoked cigarettes and drank about half a glass of wine a year, that our baby would be safe.

~A bereaved mother

A mother will stop at nothing, including her own hurt, both mentally and physically, to protect her child.

~Brokenhearted Mother


The Worst News Imaginable

Diagnosis: Anencephaly

By Tina

One day I got wonderful news, and then months later received news that was the worst I could imagine. I thought I would be having a baby in April, but my world came crashing down on me when I was 14 weeks pregnant. I went for an ultrasound in my hometown and they said that something was wrong and that they were sending me to a university perinatal clinic for further testing. I had to wait a week; that was the longest week ever, but we made it there.

Upon arrival, I had an ultrasound and was sent to see a genetic counselor who was very nice. We sat down in her office and were faced with the worst news one could get. My baby was diagnosed with anencephaly<, a neural tube defect that results in the absence of major portions of the brain, skull and scalp. There was no chance for my baby to survive, so I was faced with a decision.

The counselor and the doctor were wonderful and answered all the questions that we had. I then was told about my options; there were only two at this point, since nothing could be done to save the baby. I could either be induced and go through the labour, or terminate the pregnancy with minor surgery. After serious consideration I decided to go ahead with the surgery. But in the meantime they did an amniocentesis where they insert a needle into the amniotic sac and withdraw fluid for testing.

I think this was the best choice for the baby and us. Since I was only 14 weeks, it was a relatively simple procedure. I was also told that there is a 95% chance that I will have normal pregnancies after this because this is a fluke that happened to us.

I believe that life isn't always fair, but you have to make the best of a terrible situation and keep your head high and always remember that life goes on. There will be better days ahead. I know that he/she will go to heaven and that this was a heartbreaking choice but those are the cards we were left holding. Time will heal our wounds. I will never forget.


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